[ With that answer, and that invitation, Gold does do what he immediately wants with that.
As much as this place seems to want it from him, he can't just be with people because they're convenient. Because they're there. Because it's so ubiquitous to so many here that there are few they would say no to. And because he can't wrap his mind around that logic, or pretend to -- as unwanted as he often feels? He can't function if he is just there for them, either. Because unexceptional is just as bad as unwanted, and he's going to drown in this place if he's alone in that feeling. He knows it.
So for a moment, he isn't, and everything falls away.
He leans down and grasps Carver's shoulder, pulling him up into a kiss. ]
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As much as this place seems to want it from him, he can't just be with people because they're convenient. Because they're there. Because it's so ubiquitous to so many here that there are few they would say no to. And because he can't wrap his mind around that logic, or pretend to -- as unwanted as he often feels? He can't function if he is just there for them, either. Because unexceptional is just as bad as unwanted, and he's going to drown in this place if he's alone in that feeling. He knows it.
So for a moment, he isn't, and everything falls away.
He leans down and grasps Carver's shoulder, pulling him up into a kiss. ]