[ If these meetings have managed to do anything, it's take his mind off things. He dives into all tasks singlemindedly, broken down to their base forms, and lets his thoughts go away; there is nothing else. That's how it's always been.
This, what Carver is purring at him, is very different, and he knows it is because he feels far less like he's on solid ground. What's more, he's having to leave it to someone else to feel the ground for him.
He doesn't pull away from any touch, but he does feel unbalanced, uncertain, but abuzz with energy. He's untethered, and he wants that. He wants to go, at least mentally, as far as he can from here, from her, from the last year of his life, and if that is where Carver is going, he will gladly let him take him there. ]
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This, what Carver is purring at him, is very different, and he knows it is because he feels far less like he's on solid ground. What's more, he's having to leave it to someone else to feel the ground for him.
He doesn't pull away from any touch, but he does feel unbalanced, uncertain, but abuzz with energy. He's untethered, and he wants that. He wants to go, at least mentally, as far as he can from here, from her, from the last year of his life, and if that is where Carver is going, he will gladly let him take him there. ]
...Yes.