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[amicustenebris]

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Re: text; un: mr.gold

[amicustenebris]

It's not a moral judgment on my part. Whether someone is attractive or not doesn't really...become a question, if I don't care about them in some way. There's no issue of lust overcoming loyalty. I do not have one without the other.

I am also just very accustomed to not being that for anyone else. Pipe dreams notwithstanding, if the problem lies with me, I can deal with it. All I have to do is take care of whomever I am with.

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[donateblood]

There are words for that now, I've learned. Attraction to a person only after having formed an emotional connection. I don't pretend I know and understand it all, but it's nice, I think. To have that.

Re: text; un: mr.gold

[amicustenebris]

Perhaps it's even the one they used on the advertisement, not that I'm keen to trust them.

But all this to say: Your professed interest is flattering, though I do not understand it, and not understanding makes it easier to assume it's a lie rather than anything genuine. I know the fault there lies with me. I am not especially experienced in any of this beyond what I have already seen here.

I was married once a very long time ago. Largely unhappily. Therein lies the bulk of my understanding. Of everything involved here. I genuinely cannot comprehend your consideration. But that is not necessarily a rejection.

Re: text; un: mr.gold

[donateblood]

May I propose the possibility of friendship instead, then? No strings attached. And I will do my best to explain myself, if you so wish. I don't mean to cause any discomfort, and will refrain from flirting unless you make it clear it would be welcome.

Re: text; un: mr.gold

[amicustenebris]

That all sounds fine.

Re: text; un: mr.gold

[donateblood]

I'm going to be nosy again...

Re: text; un: mr.gold

[amicustenebris]

As I said before, I have no issue with letting people know when I have had enough.

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[donateblood]

Just let me know. I was wondering if you'd be willing to talk about your marriage? You said it was unhappy.

[amicustenebris]

What do you want to know?

[donateblood]

Well... Why you got married at all, to start.

[amicustenebris]

Because I was in love, and I wanted to have a family.

[ And I believed she loved me. ]

[donateblood]

Ah. It didn't start unhappy, at least.

[amicustenebris]

Not to my recollection.

[donateblood]

That's good. I'm happy for that, at least. Did you get the family you hoped for?

[amicustenebris]

We had a son. It did not last a good deal longer after that.

[donateblood]

Were you able to maintain a relationship with him?

[amicustenebris]

He died shortly before I came here. I would rather not discuss him.

[donateblood]

[ Oh, that hurts. He remembers when he nearly lost-- And Johnny neatly turns his musings away from that thought before it fully forms. ]

My sympathies. What about your wife, then? Or, ah... Ex-wife?

[amicustenebris]

She left when he was about four years old.

[donateblood]

You raised him on your own? Impressive. Boys are impulsive.

[amicustenebris]

There were mistakes that I worked hard to make up for. I have a grandson. That is all that need be known on that subject.

[donateblood]

Congratulations!

[amicustenebris]

It's really neither here nor there. But more specifically here.

[donateblood]

Fair enough. Topic change?

[amicustenebris]

Please.